Pandemic Brain- I have found thousands of reasons to not create for the past year and a half. My goals were lofty. This summer I planned that I would paint 21 paintings. I got close and have created 10 so far. So that’s half (ish) the amount that I planned.
I have done some other things in the Art field. I choreographed a piece via Zoom, that hopefully will have an audience to see it in the fall. I still need to get all the dancers together in one rehearsal room. I’ve been working with an Editor on the Blog and I’m working with a fellow Writer on a Screenplay of the Blog. I even took a life Drawing class in person and online, but putting brush to canvas has been tough.
Why? My brain keeps asking me “What’s next?” “What’s next in this world?” Floods, Famine, War, Global Warming, Pandemic and people just being nasty. On a daily basis I look for strength to keep me going. I talk to other artists and we all have the same questions, “Will these feelings pass?” “Will they?” and “When?” I certainly hope they do, but I don’t know what’s next.
Broadway is planning its return and I am over the moon with excitement. “Will it last?” “What if people start getting sick?” “If Broadway shuts down, what happens next?” The world will continue to spin and I need to take a breath and continue to move forward.
What is my job as an artist? Is it to inspire? How can I inspire others if Im not inspired?